The main problem with depression is the lost of any ability to rationalise every negative thought. You just want to sit in a corner and cry your eyes out, you forget the who concept of happiness: you think you’ve never felt anything but sadness and emptiness. There is no one there to help, and what is there to stop you from taking the only control you have of the situation: End Game. For me it’s a new thing, yes I have felt low enough to hibernate in my room for days at a time but never have I thought that I wanted to finish everything off for good until recently. It’s when you realise, this is not the blues and something needs to be done.
But for those who do suffer from any form of mental illness, don’t be afraid, I know it’s scary not have any control over how you feel or even what is happening around you, but recognising that things can get better with adequate treatment. It does certainly not make you as less of a person. I have to keep telling myself this every day.